Posted on here about Amsterdam not long back and the dangers of drug use.
Turns out the wierd warping symptoms i experienced returned one day whilst at work and i thought it must be my hardcore trip a month back exiting my system but i came again and AGAIN!
Turns out it wasn't the drugs at all!!!
After freaking out at work i had an ambulence come get me. Now i was numb all over literally and felt as if i was going to pass out. I was dizzy and could hardly breathe or speak.
Apparently due to many stresses in my life and with moving into a new flat and such they doctors believe it was not drugs, but an anxiety attack!!
Now i believe i have reasonable inner game so i was like 'Anxiety?! no chance!!'
Apparently its subconciously, i am either A) very stressed or excited about my life or B) im going through a big change.
The answer is both. Big change as im leaving home and stress at work. I've been coping very well and dont feel anxious or stressed as i feel relativly calm. i however am subconciously stressed and its all built up apprently.
Anybody been through this at all?
Strangely enough i had a surge of inner game after some great book i got called the 6 pillars of self esteem. perhaps that and the stress somehow caused me to overload? I mean I am a large part of that 'big change'. Eitherway im thinking of seeing a therapist just to talk to. i kinda feel like i dont need to but perhaps she can discover some repressed thing ive locked away so i can get rid of it....
Overall though i feel my life right now is awesome and looking good! My game plan is looking solid and with more money comingin soon it means im developing plans to start travelling to meet wings on here!
Pretty epic, but before this i guess i was a bit of a loser. Perhaps this quick change combined with my added responsibility caused this but i am not sure.
Anyways thanks for listening brothers and again, your thoughts?